Motivation Project–Abandonment

It comes as no surprise, not even to myself, that my Motivation Project did not work.  It has been so long, more than 4 months, since my last blog with this tag and honestly I don’t know where the wheels fell off exactly.  I know that I made a trip to Indiana for the wife’s 20 year high school reunion somewhere in there and something about being so close to so many local restaurants that served biscuits and gravy got me off the path.  If I had kept it up then I would be on day 152 and would have lost about 13% of my precious CD collection.

I have not abandoned the ultimate project behind this project though.  I still intend to get the weight off and my last blog kind of took off from that point.  I actually had started off again toward the end of December (albeit 15 lbs heavier) and then an ice storm hit rendering walking around the neighborhood quite impossible.  It was quite the event that ultimately cost me my only ice scraper that I still had left from my tenure in Indiana.  We were stuck inside the house for days and it was just enough to convince me to give up (again).

I have had so many false starts that I am tempted to give up.  Recently, the wife and I were re-watching one of the early episodes of the TV show “Til Death” (I will have to blog later of my new love for my Roku).  Some new neighbors had moved in and they were runners.  Seeing them prompted the wife to get back into shape (or at least appear to be a runner).  The husband, upon seeing his wife in jogging clothes, quipped, “What!? No, you said we could be fat. That was our 40th birthday present to each other.”  This is almost how I feel.  Like I want to give myself the present of not caring.  But, I owe it to my future self not to fall into that way of thinking (side note, I would be remiss if I did not make it clear that my wife is not yet 40).

Anyway, where do I go from here?  I thought about NOT writing this blog and then deleting my blog posts around this (now abandoned) project.  Obviously I did not do that.  It can serve as another reminder of how imperfect I am.  At any rate, the point of this blog was to close out this project and admit to the world that this motivation did not work for me.

Jon